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2009-01-18T22:19:00.002+08:00

Bites!
It's been long since i last update.
Interesting how I treat my life as " No Life?"
Nah.... that's not it...
I'm patiently waiting for the right moment to start the happiness in life.
But there's lots to sacrifies. Ergg... I hate sacrifising...
But that's the important steping stone i need to do.
I'm glad that i have interest in making myslef happy.

Imagination is working!
Miracle!!
Time running faster.
Good....
Just perfect for everything...

Great.
I having a good time getting rid of those bad memories in my mind.

Btw, If you don't like me.... What make you think i like you too?
Well If you think I'm no good, What make you think you are better?
You Pissing yourself off...
So just forget that I have nothing to do with you.
You hates is to my behaviour.
You just hate me because of my personality that you just couldn't accept.
Well, Don't ask me to change! Ask yourself to accept people the way they are.
I will not listen to whom is not better moral then others.
Thanks anyway for your act of SHIT!
I'm gladly appreciated that....
I'm being remembered by you!

2009-01-08T21:07:00.002+08:00

Headaching, Eyes begging for mercy...
Stomach grumbling?
I'm totally insane with things going on right now.
IMH!! ( I miss Him )
guess who?

StucK to This crap sister of my for the whole holidays... I've been seeing her EVERY single days..
Thanks for The KungFu panda Tattoos la....
Now i lazy to make it gone!!
How dare You put it On me While I was a sleep??!! I shall fine one Tattoo to put on u!!!
ON you FACe!!

BloodY Hell I'm tired!!
Can't Wait till tomoro 8.30pm!!
Hell Yah I want to sleeP my way All to saturdy morning after attachment..
And Pls teacher!! ShoPPings again?! I like it!!
You my Ipod Touch!
I love learning your way!

Happy2!! The Grease Musical in schooL on saturday...
My sis and i will be goin!!
So good lucks to all who performing!! Make it happen!!
And I want to buy FAMOUS AMOS!!! butterscotch please!!

ps: I'm deperate to be in love again! =P (yah right!!!)

2008-12-25T05:25:00.002+08:00

At Times like this, I quite don't understand why i can still smile?
Even though my beauty sleep is lacking...
There is much for me to learn...
More thing for me to do..

But i only wishes one thing...
One thing in life that i always wanted.
"To keep my hopes alive"
I believe that it will always come true.
Even if it's impossible, but that doesn't discourage me.
My imagintion play through it.

I'm thankful to that I've love someone before...
Cause it bring nothing but only a wide smile in me.
It is some experience to be in such places...
But i'm not good at it now...
No matter how heavy and torturing it is.....
It didn't hurt that much.
Maybe is that i didn't expect anything.
It just that i love the way it is.
Bad or good....
it just like playing a little Nice fantasy game.
Like i wanting to say that i can mentally control my emotions, conciousness and etc that is using brains..

How can i forgive myself for being this way?
I just want other to be happy.
Me to be happy too...
Guess I can only dream.
If i change?
Will it affect others too?

Keep smiling Jumie " You are strong!!"
I know you are.
Pro at Rationalizm.

Ouh well guess I stop here Then.

Btw to Anyone who love Christmas....
"MERRY CHRISTMAS"

haha
Joy to the world...... lala la... LA...
haha
"smile, smile"
muacks!
hehe

2008-12-19T22:43:00.004+08:00

Being used, being used being used!
Reality speaking...
You're scammed!

FUCK YOU shit!!!
Arghh!!
Fucking people!!
GTH!!

Okay calm own Jumie..
You know what to do!
There's no need to panic.
Drop topic.

I getting crazy over something that is......
That damn pendant is lost and i can't get over it!!!!!!!!!
Arh!!!!!!!! shit!!

2008-12-18T13:59:00.002+08:00

Was i dreaming?

Well absolutely not!
He was there yesterday! I sure about that...
Woah...
I couldn't even believe it!
He's make me smile seeing him this late though.
I'm down so down that i can't even smile.
My precious pendant it's gone.
Not @ home.. But somewhere outside...
and i don't where?
You get one for me?
You will?
Can i see that coming?
We'll see....

I'm abit hurt hearing what he says, yesterday,
but that doesn't change my mind to be there for him.
I don't care what other say...
He's always the best...
And i wish he knows that.

Sincere = "Doing something that you wish and never expect anything in return."
I do everything sincerely!!
Open your eyes and mind big... and you know it!

My reasons for not being with anybody beside you it's because...
I can't help to be away from you.
And no one interest me beside you.
No matter what you did...
I still doesn't mind about it...
Why?
I don't know why...
I just follow what i feel like.. =)
Thanks for the night!
Though I feel kind of jealous, but you share...
and i like it...

2008-12-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

I wish i could be forever TeenS!Times really run fast so fast that i wish i could just end it there and never want to look back.
How could i feel the pain now?
Why can't it be past?

I'm so depress over complicated life right now.
Why i always make the wrong choices and acceptance to other own feelings?
Why don't i have guts to fight them back?
No matter what why can i simply hate a person?
I miss your love that keep my heart beating..
Your Touch that bind around me..
Your Voices that linger through my mind...
I can't never forget you love....
Never can i never think of you...

No matter how dead i feel, My hearts still beat for you.
I miss you love.
Waiting till you held your lovely hands to bring me to the brightest place and make me tha happiest person in the world.

Ok that is way too much!! haha

I seriously am missing someone...
Can't i jus keep on dreaming and never wake up?
I love it...

I wish you could hear me out loud that i still cheering to love you no matter what!
Oppss...
Ok i better stop talking crap!!
I have to go now!! Sleepy mood!!
need a dream!! before i start all my crap!!

2008-12-12T15:00:00.003+08:00

I would definitely wanted to hug the person in my dream though i get push!
It a nice dream!
Not the part where we fall from a high building...
It makes my sweet dream dissapeared with a sudden wake. =(

I wish i could have such dream everyday....
It makes my sleep nice, happy and want u to be around!
Though reality i'm sure it won't happen..
Atleast i could dream!!

It Like you keep me safe while i sleep!
Nice!!

I will never ever stop dreaming!!
EVER!!
Can't wait till i ever get to hug you in reality =)

Till then..
Jumie Keep dreaming!!

2008-12-10T18:16:00.002+08:00

Dearest Penguin,

May your leg heal soon...
Heard that you can't walk? or maybe can't get up? Something like that...
Didn't see you in school today..
If not... i can ask the vampire doc to take alook...
OK i'm talking crap now...
Sorry... was bored.

Today back to school for the whatever nights for Y2 meeting..
planning all the stuff to do on that particular day..

Tomoro... would be having a beach occasion with class @ sentosa..
but i'm not sure to go or not..
seem like many aren't goin..
How about chalet?
should i go or not? IT's on the 11th..
and 12th we have meeting again in school.. =)
hmm..

Who would i want to ask to go out with... ?! surely i've got alot of places and thing to do?
but wat?

2008-12-09T15:16:00.003+08:00

HappY 17th birthday sweetest Bro!!
May you have the happiest day to You...
Left side My bro!! DIN!!

I want to watch this movie badly!!
With my Sis!!
Yup2...
She's Love!!
"Twilight"

Edward Cullen characters Is adoring...

2008-12-06T23:35:00.002+08:00

This time i will make useful of my holidays...
Wait... I think not..
All i do is read....
Go to some shop and buy sweets...
Do laundry...
Read...
Clean bed...
Daydreaming...
And wishing..
It's not useful enough...

Gosh... I bored..
Badly bored.
How i wish i were in fairytales? Adventurous?
Mystical?
Far beyond reality??
I know... get urself pull into the bermuda triangle...
Takes you somewhere not on earth... or perhap.. DIE??
No ones know... But then... It doesn't scared me.
Well...
Off to read again... TATA

2008-12-02T16:33:00.002+08:00

I behave myself today.
Was talking about me in school.

It was nice to see her smile back.

thanks. I need it today.

Though i did listen to her and concerntrade on the exam for the past weekends.
I feel relieve that tomorrow will be the last exam paper.
Then stress free.

Can't blog much today.
I miss snowing...
NO here in singapore, it won't snow, but still i miss the snow flake drop on the big flat plam with thick purple warm glove on my hand, to keep it from freezing.

To my suprise...
I step in to the cafeteria and saw a familiar figure from what i had seen.
A penguin sitting on the chair...
Instead of black but its grey.
Grey??
As i walk to the cashier and buy a toast which i always did when i came early to school,
I peek a closer look to see whether the "grey" was really what i think it is.
AND i gave a smile when i notice that i am right!
I when out thinking...
It's isn't cold....
Out of the weather..
Today..
=)
Lols like you said who cares..

Ouh yah....
I have something to company me on holidays..
So it wouldn't be much bored.
And It's a book where she read..
It's nice..
Not to say that i was following her..
Did i?
But i was curious...
Was a book worm like my sister during secondary school times.
But i stop when i find books aren't interesting to me anymore.
Then i start when i saw she read the most Interesting book ever to me.
And yup...
I think i copycat.
But i was only curious to know what inside.
Sometimes...
That me..
get the things and know it myself.
bad or good?
I have no idea...
That's why i need someone.
someone to guide me.

I have to stop here...
Need to revise! =)

2008-11-29T09:48:00.002+08:00

At times.. am i lying to myself?
What have i done to myself?
What have i done to others?
Why did i do that in the 1st place?
What is it that I want?

I'm tired of telling myself not to care anymore..
cause the fact that I do care..
They will be there through fighting on with me another 2 years..
And i must say it is me who do not wish to be there...
But i don't know why i wanted to be there so much?
Why did i accept the tied if i were to hurt him in the 1st place?
Why am i so convicing that i wouldn't do that?
But when i get lingered in times...
I didn't even know what i did was wrong...
And now..
I realise everything i did wasn't good...
I was weak to reject the tied weak to handle such situation and even foolish of me to make such a big joke.
For once, I really need to speak out to someone.
But I never had a chance...
Is it because i'm not brave enough?
Why am i pretending to be then?

Jumie, this is not who you are...
For once don't fall into a trap...
You can't do this alone..
You need them..
You really need them..
They see the pro and cons on you...
You really need them to help you out.

And class,
I don't hate you guys..
I don't know why everything i do is wrong...
I don't know who to speak to and i'm not as brave as you guys to face it...
If only one of you pull me out to force me to speak out...
with canes, knife and guns...
I not even sure i can..
Pathetic of me being a cry baby keep it to myself and not let it out!!

They know already...
So can you tell them what happen Jumie?
Why you did that?
and would they care if i want to speak out?

Ila? ( i didn't dare to put full name ),
this may sounded coward for me and you that i didn't dare to come out to you.
Tapi aku nak kau, tarik aku... marah aku... make aku speak out everything to you...
personally.. pasal aku tak brani nak ckp biler orang lain ader..
Why you... pasal aku tgk kau sorang je know what to do and stop me from doing it.

knape aku fikir gitu?
I also dunno why...
but for sure this time...

I'm not telling lies
I'm also tired of lying to myself.
I try talking it with ayun...
Try to tell her everything slowly..
Tapi tak dapat..
pasal when i want to tell her...
she can't get close to me takot
orang cakap kite bestfriend.

If she can see that..
I try to tell her slowly....
And
I dunno who to turn to lagi...
outside friends would only give advise...
and give up...
If another person in class,
she also can would only give me advise..
that's why i need someone who eventually brave to pull me to the better side..
Aku tahu kau tak suke aku...
and aku tahu kau akan bace blog ni..
and aku tahu kau tegas...
aku tak tahu ape nak buat kalau kau tak kisah pasal nie semua...
kalau boleh
aku tahu kau mesti benci aku...
but
i need a listening ears from you and then change me.. and
make me do something..
Aku tahu mesti kau malas nak layan karena aku nie semua..
Tapi aku takde orang lain lagi yang bleh tolong except kau ngan XXXX ( i also dun dare put her name )
korang dua je....
Mintak tolong satu kali...
then aku tak ganggu kau lagi...
Aku janji..

and.. I never dislike anyone... in other words it's the opposite...

2008-11-26T18:38:00.002+08:00

Can't understand this pathetic situation in school.
It's hurt deeply that hearing someone that i respect much, actually talk about me.
What is it wrong to be simply friendly to joined happiness with you guys?
I know, i'm much irritating, annoying and rather look like a bitch...
But i never ever cross to think that you all are bad person, till today..
Fine then i start doing the same.

I actually tell (someone),
that someone hate him to eventually relieve an anger...
I gave alittle lie...
I wanted to know how much whether i can entrust him...
We'll see...
If she get to know..
Then i'm right..
He cannot be trusted.
Cause i know i need to lie on something just to find out something..
Well I know her... she'll hate me for sure..
but i don't care anymore..
He tell me that she said i'm annoying..
Which i don't wish to believe..
The only way to find out he's telling the truth is to make the case worst till she go out to me and tell that herself without pretending that she like me.

And i don't think that will happpen...
Plus.. I don't give a big fucking damn.....

ps:
I hate you already...
Thanks alot!!

2008-11-25T12:56:00.002+08:00

In school...
@ MLC doin nothing!!
School Is boring!!

Hated that i have to be in school today..
But Nvm... For the sake of Nursing course to end fast... yeah I drag all my body here!
~_~"

Okay blog until here no time to blog in school.
Not a convinient place to write.

ps: I'm sitting next to a smelly guy here.. Cannot tahan the smell!

2008-11-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

I feel like screaming on the bottom of my heart.
" BloodY HeLL!!"
"Argh!!"
Bad lucks? sway?!

My leg!! I love them!
My weekends ruined!!
Can't bare the pain!!
How could that happen?

Shit... I never ever had a sprain in my entire life!!

Now my knee get it!!

I was being a happy there praticing the chingay thingy and i don't know what happen..
Suddenly my knee get twisted and yup.. ligament giveway??
What the hell happen to this bloody week of mine?
I hate it already!!
Life truly sucks at this time!!
I want to die already!!
Sian!!
kill me someone pls!!

I'm stress!!!
I hate this fucking life!!
I am being patient.. but i can't take the pain anymore!!
It hurts... seriously..
Hurt me so much!
What the hell did i do wrong?! what did i do?!

What fucking thing/ big mistake have i ever done?!!!

I need to cool down now..
Okay relax..
This is jus for a period of time.. you can't avoid fate or neither what have been given...
But you can change and plan what you have been given..
Okay.. i'm going for it...
Shh... hush...
blog again.
till nex posting..

2008-11-21T23:16:00.002+08:00

Went out catching movie..
Madagascar 2 is done!

Now what else?!

Hmmm...
Tomorrow drag my morning to go for Chingay training.. ouh my..
Lazy BUTT!!

Nite2...
=) write again perhaps..
tomorrow?
When will my sis come back from her Honeymoon?
I'm getting bored and missing her already!!
Dots...

2008-11-21T07:52:00.007+08:00

Didn't know that life has been rather pathetic to me in school.
Everything to me is just happen to be unlucky day...
All because of the projects, friends and etc.
I can understand much why they pissed off or hate me that much.

Tired of convicing and explaining to them...
I rather ignored what happening out there...
Cause everything happen for a reasons...
Hate me or dislike me...
I don't care what they say.
I know myself...
and i aint a bitch!

However...
Miss being friends with them..
Tears rolling down my cheeks not going to get them back.
All i have to do is change.
And the big thing i have to change is not to care in order not to get hurt...

Firstly.. in this blog... I have my own will and freedom to write everything i want right?
So... here i go for what i want to say...

To Faisal:
Sorry that i've been such a nuisance to you this module 1.2..
I don't know what's going on to me and i also don't know why this happen...
I'm truly sorry and i know you pissed off with me many time plus...
Even if you hate me, i'm not going to hate you for that...
All i can do is apologised...
Sorry for Hurting you.....
And seriously i ever fade away all my thoughts about you...
Fair enough that i admit it here...
( If you hate me for this... I can't say much... cause i miss talking to you but you dislike me talking to you...so can't do anything much!)
And thanks for being a Nice, observant, caring, understanding, loving friend.
Sorry, sorry, sorry... for me being an asshole..
If i can get down on my knees to beg for mercy i would have done that... But i don't think you like it...
And Imy being there...
How could such thing fade so easily...?!
Is there anything i can do to get it back?!

To Nura:
I love you the most and i trust you the most in class...
Thanks for the care!!
You always been there to care and ask " what happen? are you ok?"
That touches me that atleast you care even thought i did not know you like me or not.
But I heart you the most in class though i'm not close to you that much due to no reason happening in me.
I'm sorry a thousand apologised that if i ever hurt you...

To Azizah:
First friend that i'm close to during the 1st day of school.
Miss being with you, adilah, diana, syaz, wani, hazeeq, azizi and faisal.
Sometime things happen unexpectedly..
But still you the 1st person i alway remember that whom i talk to the 1st day of school. =)
Sorry to you if i have left the group to roam around to knew other people in the class...
If i ever hurt you on that, I'm sorry too... =(

To Hairizi:
I don't know what to say to you..
Just alittle apologised "Sorry..."
cause i've been an irritating pest to you.
Sorry Tau!!

To Fai:
I didn't mean to make you don't like me for being close to ayun!!
Sorry!!!

Lastly....

To someone in school WHOM always call me a "PIG"!! :
( You know who you are !! )

I respect you very much...VERY VERY MUCH!! SERIOUSLY NO JOKE.
You seem to be the very person that I ever Like to be close and friend with!!
THANK FOR THE CARE!!!
and SORRY FOR THE DITCH nowadays..
been very stressful due to something happen to me...
Not blaming you...
Still if you hate me in other words...
I can't do anything much..
And Yeah i never hate you ever..
why??
You different for other people who i know.
And... you're always there to help every possible way!!

Thank and thanks..
but no thanks for something too...
Stop calling me pig and yeah... saying that i'm "........"
I miss irritate you, that the only way i can get trouble with you.
And yeah " close?? "

I think that's all i got to say to you..
And ouh yah..
Take care...
plus all the best for everything..

YOu are VERY VERY VERY good person i ever known and MUCH BETTER from the others!!

And yah..
Never go to school today. Why? cause i dislike to be in class already!!
Not school but class...
Those classmate i have make me hate to be there..
I hate gossips...
I hate hating...
but i love them!!!

Never hate them!!

2008-11-08T11:57:00.002+08:00

All I ever want is to be with someone who loves me...
And it's hard...
Imy dear!
I'm worried you leave me with a crush pieces of glass in me...
I see you almost everyday...
But we never laughed/smile at each other or eitheir say something.
Imy.

Imy.
Imy

Imy.
Imy.

Badly...

You've always been in my heart..
No matter what you did.
I miss us.
and I miss our love forever.

I miss walking with you..
I need motivation.
I need you.
I need us.

And...

I thinking of doing something that is sweet but can't think of anything.
Sweet to everyone.
And it need $$$

nvm guess it worth a try.

Ily dear!

And the monkey that i'm holding look exactly like you..
=)
Ily!!

Great Smile.
Great Tears.
Great Laughed.
Great Kisses.
Great Huggs.
Great Acting.
Great Imagination.
Great Everything thats is so great to me...
And it's you... =)

Love by: ME!! and only me!!
Promise me you won't leave me!
My monkey!

FrankLy SpeaKing I have no Boyfriend and am not attached...
Only Miss SomeOne.. =)

2008-11-07T19:19:00.005+08:00

I miss the times where i go out with them...
This is the time that i never been happy to call them my friends..
And they still are..
but after attachment everything when on tip toe..
Shaking all our closeness to break.
I wonder what is it?

Yesterday... morning having adventure rope..
Seriously not that much of a fun to me..
But something telling me..
It ok...
let it go...
Be happy and keep smiling..And i did!

Wanting to take pictures with only NORA..."
But those 3 are just a background disturbance...

Joining in without invitation..
It's ok though cause my face look fairer then all of you..
Lols.. HAhaX

Futher more can i express my anger onto this guy here?
Seriously... I talk to him and he has no reponse or ignored me in class..
WTH did i do wrong?
If i did..
I'm truly sorry!!

It make me sad in class to be ignored..
can don't pretend!

Still...
I don't understand why in this pic I can smile?
Cause...
I force myself to smile..
That particular moment..
Something inside me hated evrything..
But my ego tells me that hatred not going to bring any happiness.
and... ily you guys...
Imy the moments..

School has been tough for me to adapt this particular module.
I've been roaming around crazily like a little lost pig in school with no further attention..
HahaX..
But end of the day...
with all the sigh..
I feel it's just a matter of time..
So run faster will yah!!
Another mistake i do..
That's it....
I take myself to a guilt position again.

Imy granma! See you this thurs!!
I feel kinda sad, worried, and uncomfort throughout all the week....
Why? asking me..
I feel like being use.. being ditch plus...
Someone that enter my life didn't care at all..
Still ily..

OK done writting ..
Need a rest.. So lethargic..
Until the nex post...

Dearest Someone,

The moment that I had with you, was just another moment that i want to have now.
How i wish i could turn back in time..
Time changes everything does it?
And i take everything as bygon be bygons..
Still ily...
and...
imy...

From : Sweetest Jumie =)

Within every circumstances I make my way to smile.
So keep smiling with me.

2008-11-05T12:41:00.008+08:00

I didn't get up to go to the long hours of school today...
Lazy...

Due to some reason... My body it's better off stuck at home.
I'm @ home smiling and they in class stressing!!
Wohoo...!!

I'm Craving for Chocolates!! Seriously!!
Plus... I sick of school.
I sick of the environment there.
I sick of some people there.
I sick of waking up as early as 5am.
I sick of studying for test.
I sick of listening to some boring teachers.
I sick of going back home that far.

I sick of being not me.
I sick of being unsocialise.
And sick of seeing someone that pathetic in class.

Just need a little expressing out my boredom about school.
Those cheering and laughing are some fake yesterday during Stress Programme.
Hated YesterdaY!
Almost everyday...
After today... I going to do something about it..
Roaming with a BIG FAKE SMILE and be NICE.

Hating the MILO in class already..
Ditching me alone, all by myself....

THANK AH !!
I don't care anyway...
I'm Use to it...

Thanks god there's YONG MING..

End up not going back to my uncle places...
Sorry Lina..
Sorry KaK Julie..

Put this as Let bygons be Bygons... shall we?!

I miss Going back when there someone waiting for me..
Lols..
And the person didn't ditch me la..
Seriously...
The person real NICE!!

Roar!! Can wait till nex week!! Busy Bee!!
My sis wedding coming up..

As you know I'm a family person..
Love my family the most
Be skipping 2 lesson on thursday!! HAHAX..
BYE BYE class!!
And be rushing back and Smile2 plus my home gonna be pack and hot with lotsa humans..

Ask someone to pick me up can?
Anyway... i have many thing to do..
Need to upload picture on the thumbdrive... Octa's member need it to do the project..
Plus... I'm busy!!!
Sorry dearest Friends that I won't be able to help that much.
In stressing mood. but still Calm cause i don't think about it that much..

And here me uploading The OCTABELLY outing...
Only some pics are out.. not all..
1stnovember2008

this is a great photo to me.. Hazeeq the Camera man!

iLy this pic...below

and this pic too..

Okay done....
Miss my secondary times when i view Arnanti Blogs...
sucks to know that you hav to suffer another day to just get your future pass right.
But still..
I Miss You

XXXXX!

YOu're the best no matter whats..
You know who you are!!
No one knows...
Except me!
I want chocolates from You need it badly..

Ouh yah forgot...
Yesterday during PM lesson.. We have this Mime Thingy..
Was So funny.. and didn't know that zyizah group took the video..
Look like as if it were a real smack..
well view her blog to see the story line and video.. she upload it..

http://www.azyiizah-701.blogspot.com/

and this one from johnson group..
The act story: Big bully?
Stealing a candy from a kid?!
Poor Damien.

2008-10-31T21:30:00.010+08:00

Hellu!! Haha... Free to write again i suppose... Just got back from watching "HSM3" with Ayun..
Troy in the show is so HOT!!
Still My Love is way hotter...
Haha..

Anyway i did upload some photos..
Scroll down to see.. Many2

We camwhore the whole day!!
some of them were in diff days like this one below...

Picture taken on S&W thursday!!

Had nothing better to do....

We buy drinks cause we so thirsty and...
Pic the drink we bought..

70cents cheap right?! vending machine..

then... we took pic agains...
I find them best personality in class..
Thought many of them actually are..
just that it's at times..

Thursday "Pm" lesson was not as what i expected to be a SWAY day for me..

I just hate that being disturb or use as a fool/ laughing stock to the class..

It makes me guilty and so wrong that some games turn up @ the front board and the whole class was like seeing it..
And there came someone in...
Saw it...
Dots.. dunno wat was in his mind..
But I swear to god that wasn't wat i want..
Seriously!!
You girls have nothing better to do ar?!
Crazy...
F got GF!!

So stop it already...

I keep moving around finding to fit in to someone to be close with in class..
And yup.. Fine some..
FAI, AYUN..

Best talking to them..
And believe me.. I didn't steal ayun away from you Fai.

Just talking to her.
PLus... girls...
watch wat you say to her can??
You girls are old enough to think...
RESPECT, and appreciate others..
PLus... grow up and stop gossiping and laughing about other who you want to make it a laughing stock..
cause it's not funny...

And here the pic start...

Fai look cute..

Starting cam whore in the day... =)

nothing better to do..

Back to the land of childhood times....
Wish i wear still in childhood times..

return that tiara back to my head!! I'm the princess here!!

Act cute!!

hula dance anyone??

i like the book!!

mix match

She say she want to buy those shoe..

it fit!!

and... i can't fit into this can't i??

grow up..... you can't fit into that ayun...

and i want that necklace in my basket..

Some people in class say we bestfriend...
Are we?
Haha...
It just that i'm close to here due to some reason that i can share something...
And come one..
Trusthworthy is return all over her face..
And Yeah...
If can...
I would love to make her my bestfriend...
Are they just being jealous..
At time i hate being in the class..
but that's life..
I hate the classmates in there..
Not hate but it just that at times..
They being to over react onto something..
And i'm out there jus to be nice..
Not famous..
I dun need fame.

ImY dearest love...
Things are really changing here..
And hate that I have to live on with it..
Can really god bless me?! Not insulting or critisizing or whatever..
But was just asking..
Gosh i feel so lonely in life now..
although i have friends.. but dearest been quiet for quite some times.. and i miss the fun..
So heart broken..

Well.. until here then..
I got outing with the Octa group 2moro..
Got this feeling that it will not turn out that FUN!!

2008-10-26T11:49:00.006+08:00

I've been so busy all weeks that i can't find time to blog that much.

Done Ngt phase test yesterday & i pass.. Thank God!

Now... Need to concerntrate on BEH science... hehe

Plus... Life has been full of stress & crazy for me.
I keep changing my mood on friends..
WHy?
Cause i can't find any that Stay in one piece!

Still I heart My friendS!..
And i Love Them so much that I don't mind spending Lots of hours in school just to meet them.

Ayun... One of my Favourite GF in class.
She's sweet isn't she?

PLus this joker Hazeeq in class..
He and Faisal Make My day completely interesting.....
We've been close since module 1.1
Thought nothing seperate us....
ILY this pic...
Cause my eyes reflect is there!
I can prove how busy i've been...
In class..
In my Pm Group..
Octa Belly ( namely gross by Ruz )
See how hard working i am.. well i'm actually just colouring some F1 3d paper cut work..

Photo being snap by some background cameraman... Dunno who
and done colouring.... We cut....

and he enjoyed eating while we busy making the F1 paper thingy!!

Snap photo with hearted friends...
Plus the BFFN See hazeeq face anywhere..
He's just acting cute!!

And there come azizi... Snap photo again... and i didn't realise faisal do that on me while taking pics!!

plus you might not know what ruzaini might do behind your back when you doing something!

And here it is done the 3d f1 paper project thingy... then...

We off to our break...

Still there's time to snap a photo again.. hehe..

Then we head off to Hazeeq Favorite Food Place "NooDes"
And pretty sure the food there is expensive!!
HELL YAH!!

Look appetizing.. but... seriously It's too much!!

I've been like taking down notes & blogging at the same time.. from 1pm till now @ 5pm...
Hot seat huh...

Well.. that's how i keep myself busy from thinking..

Good news for me..
I can pretend well this time...
Seriously and no one knows what i'm up to now..
PLus... i know someone characteristic & What he's up too..
And i don't care.. Cause the game that he's playing...
Winning edge is him... but yeah i never want to lose althought.....
I know i can't do anything....
But hell watever... There's karma

Shit... Load of work here...
Guess i'm off blogging... till nex time..
Will take more pics with friends!! hehe!!

2008-10-19T01:06:00.002+08:00

Omg.. He melts my heart!! So Hot & sored of cool!!

You're Are "always" Love by me!!
Although you abit irritating.. and we fight often..
Still having you around is fun..
With much of a attitude pampered by your family..
I love you so much...
So Please I beg of you Change yourself and be NICE TO YOUR 2nd sis & me!!

Counting the year that we going through together remind me when my mom get angry and cane 3 of us..
We would be hiding in a room all the 3 of us and cry.. plus... for hours hiding in a little corner and sit till we fell asleep and dad's come back.
Miss those time.. but not the cane from her ofcourse..

HAha.. And this is My Mom
Seriously She Love to make funnY faceS when i TooK her PICT!!
And this is one of my FAV!!

She is the Love of my life!
Heart her so much...
Althought she piss me off with something sometimes..
But she always CAre for me..
I love you mum!
Sorry i blog your ugly photo..
BUt it's cute anyways...
You have a husband already so.. not to worry..
Hehe...

Well it's getting a little late.. and i just got back from johor..
Gone there to visit my dad's aunt and then head home..
Now bloging...
And i think i stop here.. need to go out and study 2moro!
Loving you!

As Always...
Thanks for everything!
Till then!
Take Care!
Anything Msg or call!
And.... I get that always...

2008-10-18T00:20:00.003+08:00

My legs Are freaking weak and i;m totally worn off + TIRED!!

Turns midnight when i blog this..
Didn't blog for 5days due to busy class scheduel.
It's like taking my whole time of the day in school, 3hrs30mins in train total traveling...
and lastly the nextfew hours @ home + lack of sleep..

its like hell la..

Dots but atleast keep me busy from thinking such things..

And ofcourse Having friends in class is fun.. But not that much of a fun.
My teambuilding enrichment program was interesting.. Well we know atleast some people attitude in class are much of untrusted..
still that is life that we have to go through..

No matter how.. we have to accept the fact that diff people treat diff'ly..
Lols..
Still Some are the best to me..

Imy!!

I Love you so....!!

Crazy me!

Anyway pict credit to cameraman [ruffin] again..
Ouh yah..
forgot i meet Zak in my school today..
haha.. world skill thingy.. he got here so far.. dots..
Attitude was as expected..
stil the same when i say hi.

And not to forget mention about Zak..
Yesterday went back home from school with
4 guys and me myself a girl..
Wth?!! haha
"PIMP" girl version..
haha
Dots..
JKJK {lols}
Hyder is much of an attractting to guys too huh...
As i can see taufeeq is like getting on close to him.
Still force to be friends that what Faizal sayz..
And poor Hairizi there got such an insult from him..
though i can do anything prety much..

I think i'm too worn off..
Stop here then blog again tomoro.. Nights!!!

2008-10-12T12:51:00.003+08:00

Picture credit to dearest friend.[Ruffin]
Thanks!

Today Is the last week of holiday for me.
Had to suffer tomorrow morning and wake up as early as 5am and go to school.

I had no mood and my leg are lazy to go that far....
but I had to force them...
I don't have anything to look forward to @ the moment to go to school.
Use to have someone that makes me look forward to go to school and study!!
Now nothing..
2moro i don't knowwhat time school end..
but i have to admit that after school i need to stay until freaking 6.30pm then head to tampines interchange and meet my sis.
Freaking Bored la like that..
I only know that my lesson will end earlier then that!
What i'm going to do?

Pretending that i have an imaginary friend?
Let name it..
Ok i want it to be a "Him"
And his name will be...
Ermm...
Jack?
but i like Danny..
Both will be fine..
So i name them..
Hehe..
Gosh i so bored at e moment.
Keep talking crap!!
And i guess I'll be crazy
I miss old times...
Having someone to be around..
And me being famous during sec 2 just because of an old friend KHAI..
Sweet being in that position..
How to gain back those times?
Well..
I try to do something..
@ a mean time..
Wishing

ABG FAHMI ANUAR
A Happy A day AdvaNce...
Birthday!!!
Wohooo!!!

Enjoy your foot reflexiology!!!
with your beloved LoveS...
My sis!
till then..

TATA!

2008-10-12T02:52:00.002+08:00

I wait for your love to return no matter how long it takes..
I'm not letting you go even though i said so..
You make me love you once..
And i never gonna fall back.
Sweet as it seem last time..
Makes it even sweeter to think back this time.
So..
P.S: I miss you!

Today i went out to IMM!!
Get something.. and then...
I had a great talk with an old friend..
Head to Jurong Point and gave a little walk.
Then i go coffee bean to buy a drink plus a cake and enjoy with dear old friend..
Talking about the problem my friend have.. I felt sorry for it.
Sorry...
I head home to get my keys..
Then show my dear friend the memories to walk where secondary time bring us back..
i bought chocolate @ 7 11 then head home.
Till then.. i miss you!

2008-10-11T10:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was quite a day for me...
Sorry to hairi that i have to turn him down with his friend to follow him raya outin..
I manage to follow my secondary school friends to raya outing from 2pm - 6pm...
Then head home & follow mum to My aunt open house @ marsiling..
Around 9pm, We head to Another house @ CCK,..
And guess what?!
I was sitting with a little child on a chair facing the door..
and i saw Nabil & AfiQ..
It was Hairi's friends.. so i thought that Hairizi might be there..
5mins later there's a ring on my phone..
It was him & i'm right!!

haha..
What a small world after all...
Dots..

Gosh!! But to bad i was about to go home.. so can't meet him..
Yea.. sorry..

And.... again... this is what a sweet thing about a person who make me smile..
Haha...

He(someone) dream about me,"asking out on a dinner or something.." Dots..
And he was my sec school classmate which by we just went out raya yesterday...

[ he's Cute + SweeT+gorgeous + Handsome + Fit = 10X hunk! ]

but he told me 2 day before (wed)
Sweet.. somebody dream about me.. didn't know that! HAHA

And like telling me..
Make me blush lor..

make me sleep nice on that day...
haha... Wth ?! Not in a million years i dream about someone..
Unless I forgot or something..

Sweet of him...
Is wasn't his nightmare!!

He said so..
So.. considered i appear as a nice dream to him la.. haha.

OK for now..

Another story...
Appear to be the whole week of sweet but disasterous Nightmare on "confusing state" for me.

A misterious guy call...
and he haunt me!
Saying i promise something.. and i wonder What?!
And i didn't even who was that person la..
I keep hang up and diverting the call..

?
GoosebuMp!!!

2008-10-10T06:05:00.002+08:00

Time For me to Get Busy!! Friends...
My scheduel Pack..
Wow!!
Didn't know that I was that Muchof a need to them too!!
Loving My Days..
Nothing but A smile on my face gave me Alittle Happy On the Go!
Fickle minded between Todays Plan..
WHich to go?
Sec Class Raya outing?!
Hairi's & Friends Raya outing?!
MeeTing Old FrienD Khai's?!
or...
Date @ Home?
ShucK"S!..
Hairi want me to come so as my classmates to..
Which to pick...
Got Collection for both right?! HAHAHa..
okok Dots was just joking..
Anyway...
Write back and upload some photo again later's..

MorniNgs btw..

2008-10-08T06:16:00.002+08:00

My heart feel uneasy to sleep at this point of time.
I just want myself to smile on to a memorable fun always.
But find none.
I roaming around to find something that can make myself to forget what is past and not to think back.
I hate myself ...
I can't
After what i put in to the Love that is consider not at all.
The only thing i do is seat, cry and regret.
why is it so?
Cause the person who you actually don't care, You began to care.
And when you start to care,
Then Everythings Start to changes in a blink of an eye.
You Can pretend to not remember what you did cause thats where it lies the term
"Be Responsible!"
And to think that this is true?!
I don't even know.

I hate seatig down waiting for my phone to beep like it use to.
But only wishing it...
It doesn't make me smile.
Neither if it happen,
It's a miss that i want.
I miss the phone call and the voice.
Plus even if I were a little angry at times when i got tease..
Still..
The closer we get eventually bring us futher.

Why do i make a fool out of myself?
Why the hell i even care?
I hate being this way.
Truthfully...
I hate being ditch.
I hate being alone.
I hate being forget and
plus I hate myself for being this way...

Somehow we intend not to realise something until it's been done or seen.

anyway.... What i wrote up there was what i only feel inside..
But still..
I wanna have a little bit of fun..
So trying myself to cheer up..
I find something to give myself a little smile.

Haha this is funny it looks like you..
HAHA jk jk.

Until here i think i'll stop.. I'm tired..

2008-10-06T13:58:00.006+08:00

If only my life were like it...
I be a thousand times happy..
And i'm wondering if i still got block...
Ouch.. it hurts..
but i can't force to unblock...
So...
Let it go..

Knowing that what I have to know about you...
And What I should face in some circumstances Just to find out about you.
And everything That i need to know about you...
Thats how I feel ^^^
Butterfly everwhere..
Adventure To Play a little game..
But wait.. the game will be never ending..
And I'd be bored if it keeps going on and on...
But i have nothing to say and just play the game..
If i'm out... I'm at the losing edge..

Noting that i can do to make people stop hating me.
Everything I've done now come sincerely from my own will...
I neither ask for any return or wants from anyone.
It's just my part to do what I really want to do.

Now.. Everythings turns Rotten..
Eventually I did something out of my own thinking..
End up with something Unexpected.
Regreting it was not what i want now...
But all i need is someone to be there to care...
but my need seem hopeless..
I believe nothing in this world is fair.
That's make me stronger...
You can't neither force or control something that you want.
But patients.... It takes all you need..
And thats what I believe...

Can I say bullshit to this words?
Well.. I'm not sure...
You can find but you can't force it to be shown.
It comes without you knowing it right? Perhaps..
Whatever... I don't care on it anyways..
Not everybody is as lucky as it seems....
People might get even worst...
Is just that the love that they put on someone is to much i guess?

It can never be seen...
And guys will never understand what a girl wants..

I miss....
I miss everything...

Our inside Jokes
Its too many to name.
When we're apart,
It's never the same...
When we're together it's nothing but fun..
And replacing you it can't be done.

great..
I'm bored...
piss off... and plus...
I'm in no mood to continue writting now..
So toddles...
Bye!
Have fun & take care...

2008-10-05T00:51:00.002+08:00

My stomach feel pain lot lot...
i can't bare the pain this night...
keep crying cause i ate painkiller it won't even be gone....
Then now.. I writting with a headache...
Wth happen here?!

I crazy for a guy ~_~"
but i seriously can't make him the same...

2008-10-04T15:12:00.002+08:00

Today, I am pack with stuff to do...
1st planing and calling the JpA class to inform them on tuesday..
7th of october there will be A raya outing for the Class...
Meeting place @ tampines 1100hrs...as we'll start from east side houses...
2nd Didn't know my makcik2ss... Coming with Load of family and SMALL kids...
Hate them in my rooM!!

MessY Like Hell!!
Poor Cat have to be afraid of them.
3rdly.... Unsure.. Be busy layaning them..
Then Clean house when they go back.. esp wash the dishes..

HeHe...
and there i go like Crazy....

Well i was thinking of other people characters...
Each of them is made of different feeling, emotion and reaction...
As i were to know me myself tend to have all those..
Have to know each of them i learn how to control my characteristic.
So To other i may bocome unpredictable.
NO one knows " I'm in love or I just act in love,"

Or perhaps
" I just play along..."
Like as much as i can't predict that person feeling and emotion,
I never ever put on High hope to That person.
I know One day I may trip and fall on to a trap.
To think that i may not know what you doing behind me,
Just to let you know i may be your stalker.
And I irritate more as much as you want me too....
So beware and don't dare to fool a girl like me.
But if i don't wish to react futher then consider you are lucky to live..
Cause i may assume you might not be happy for what you've done.

And... there is alway a "KARMA"

Now... about Lies...
Hahas...
ALL PEOPLE LIES.......
and i'm one of them too..
Not as much cause i know much will really hurts..
But i know who lies and who don't;s But if they do normally i just play along..
Duhs... like hello... Who cares anyway..?!

uhmmm...
Gosh...
Being in my position is FUN!!

I enjoy every single of it.
Even though people say " I suck!" ,
Like they are too... Cause they go emoing over something one day..
Get angry at timesss..
"YOU Suck!!"

OPssie...
Hush there on words..
sorry...

To dearest ones...
I miss You!! ALWAYS.... THIS NOT AN ACT!!
Don't believe me.... IT's ok..
cause I wouldn't sacrifice to do anything for you if i never love right?

SO trust me This is not an act.
I really love you..

2008-10-03T21:43:00.004+08:00

I'm Happy like ever before...
As we Need to know that everything we don't know we should know.
It was nice of him to say that he will always be there for me.
I'm sorry that i always Make him Piss Off..
But in actual Fact all i want is his Attention.
I was kinda jealous to think about him with her,
but again i was relief...
He'll always be there.
I know he will. He's one of the superheroes i know.
Superman?!

Batman?!
SpiderMan?!
Hulk?!
wait!!??
where did i hear this name from... hulk isn't a superheroes..
Okay.. the stronger hunk among them... HahaX. lols
Wait...
or perhaps.. He's one of the william hung.. teehee..~_~"

^_^"

no matter what....
I willing to do everything not everything exactly... jus to gain his love.

and because of that..
i want to award you this.....

Hehe...
Not exactly...
Hmmm....
Thanks, Thanks, Thanks....
omg!! this is cool!!

I want to get together.....
and make you be my GrooM....

hmm... i wonder...
i tired liao... my tummy hurts alot alot...
Need a rest.. Thanks For the PASTA chef!!
It's NIce!!! you Make it HOT!!! damn it's Hot!! and i LOIKE!!! WITH cheese on top!!
PErrrrrFectTTTss.....siOn...
Waaalaah!!!

Till then Love you!

2008-10-02T16:36:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep well last night thinking about it.
I don't what to do if it happens.
I mean I suddenly think about it and pretty sure 90% maybe it could happen.
It's just that i'm to stress over this thing.

Damn... I hate life so much...
It makes me want to end it here..

But i got unfinish business...

NO! I won't think about this!
I deadly sure I wouldn't care less!!

Until then...

2008-10-02T03:45:00.002+08:00

Fine I admit it;
I think of you every second, everyday.
You're my favourite subject to talk about.
When i hug you, I wish i could never let go.
Most of my dream have you in them.
I always get excited when i see you again.
& I'm in love with you!!

Why am I crazy about you?
I wish I could stop but i can't.
It's my heart that won't listen.
My body won't work to my mind
& i'm so Stress over myself!

It's like I would die for him.
100% serious not a joke.
Believe it or not... Try point a gun at him infront of me...
I'll surely put the gun at my head...
say" I take his death, you may kill me & spare him!"
seriously..
Or either way I won't let anybody lay a hand that might get him injured.
If that happen, I won't spare that person beauty( life?! perhaps )

Gosh...
I love you a little to much.
And i miss you everytime.
can i say something?
Like what if....
ouh nevermind..

Don't bother.I can't sleep thinking of calling him.
But..
he's ZZzzzZZ
Love you!

2008-10-01T02:41:00.002+08:00

member member member member member member member member member !!!
Argh!!!!!!!!!
This thing makes me crazy!!
HE WON"T MISS ME?!!
After all i've done?! He won't?
sad sad!
I want to cry now...
Can't sleep!! Since yesterday!!

So sad!!
I'm so depress over something.
I so missinghim lately...
But nvm... bring it on!!
I know you can act well but i'm sure you missing me too!!

Won't say you miss me but can say You love me?
Haha... different wat..
Oh gosh...
I stop here...
Headached all the sudden...
Dizzy since this morn making my appetite to eat change.
Anyway...
P.S : I Miss/ Love YOU!!

2008-09-30T15:41:00.003+08:00

Missing someone isn't about how long it's been, since you seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked.
It's about the very moment when you're doin something,and you wish that they were right there with you.

And yup... I miss him!

HAHA.... ILY much!

Cute right!!
Seeing this type of Cute pictures make me Think of him!
I think if you were to be like that...
People might think you having mental Problem or either you hugging a ghost/lost spirit or something.
Cause i've just try it and someone commented like this...
" Gile pe? Takde kerje? Kau action peluk siape?
ANak raja? Pegi mimpi ah.."
Dots.... in english translation...
" Crazy or what? NOthing to do huh? You pretend to hug who?
Prince Charming is it? Go dream la..."
What the hell is doing something like that wrong?
I just follow whats the picture shown.
Anyway.. My response is " Yah.. why? Even if i dream I could sure that it's reality to me..."
And there the person goes "Huh?! Siao!"

This morning 5am i went to the kitchen sat there and stare @ the refrigerator.
I Suddenly feel like Seeing him.
Then i Went to shower and The handphone beep!!
Guess what it says " So you still coming?"
Omg! That freak me out!
In the toiletS?
Then i smile...
What the hell was that?
I reply after i get on my clothes...
Ready to Go off and..my cuz call
"you Mind pick uncle @ 12?"
And i was shock!!
"Of course i don't!"
His reply makes me crazy..
It like I telling him " CAN YOU HURRY REPLY!!"
But i don't dare send that..
It might makes him angry i think.

There i go...

I think i should stop here.
Continue bloging perhaps later?!
Busy2..
And I've just been miss!!
Woohoo..
I Heart you so much!!
Thanks for everything..

Ouh yah..
Selamat Hari Raya..
Maaf Zahir dan Batin to you..
This sounded so weird..
Haha..
Till then!!

Do As requested again!
MuacKX!!

2008-09-29T16:15:00.002+08:00

I've done everything I could.
It's tiring trying to do something for someone.
Never know that I'm this willing to do anything you ask me to.
Just came back from bank.
Have to wait till i stop hearing the word.
" I want member!"

But serious this word is much more nicer to hear rather then
" I want ..... (guess it own your own)!"

Who would have thought that we are close?
We are yet it seems so far....
That's whats making me think.
But whatever.....
Anything happens...
I'm not going to change my mind.

If i takes something to make a person fall for me.
I do whatever it takes not to leave me.
Well... if i'm doing this doesn't even work,
I wouldn't give up.
Even though i know i would regret one day.
I wouldn't be as long as the fun for me is always there.
=)

Till then.....
I always do heart you.

2008-09-29T02:59:00.002+08:00

Omg!! This pic is really reminding me of you!!
I need a hug!!

and seriously...
I'm in pain thinking of you...

It make me can't sleep @ this morning!! Going to 3am!!

But i just did la....
I proven enough did i?
The way that i would do anything for you?!
Have i?

Ouh shit I miss you like crazy!!
I'm scared too!!
Worst still thinking of it... It makes my mind not in peace.
Why?!
Cause Losing someone special to me Like you makes me want to KiLL myself!!
Seriously I want to do that!

DUDE!!
I so totally heart you!
How can i make myself stop being Scared so much?!
Please..... Talk to me, say something you once and for all really meant.
Make me in peace.
All i want is your lovingness and care...
Can i really get it?

Its true life is unfair.
And do we have to accept the fact that in reality " We give and never receive?"
But you have proven it wrong...
You receive already what you want.
I seriously not going to change my feeling!!
I'm confident and dead sure!!!!!!!
Cause i know myself better.
Trust me.

And i'm scared if i get jealous....

It's true...
I wouldn't regret knowing you...
Cause you came in my mind to be someone who different from others...
plus...
You actually understand and know what going on in life,
but you didn't show the true colour of yourself.
And that how i fall for you....
You make life fun to me.
Dearest loved,
I miss You As always...
Please say you love me!!
Truly,Jumie!!

I heart you!!

2008-09-28T13:12:00.003+08:00

Haha.. thinking about it...

Who the hell create this all words...?!
All problem begin with men.
Well kinda true!!
HAhaX...

Sorry today not writting as much as what i use to...
Enough for that much, cause in the end compliment that what was expected will be given.
Anyway he's Cute!! .
Just that i'm being way sweeter than he is...

I am....

Ouh my gosh this is so cool...
Finding about this is like making me smile..
It's funny to me..
See....

Nah... this wasn't meant for you, it was meant for fun liao...
<3

Wink?! Wink?!
hehe..

anyway...
that all i think i update for this afternoon..
Going out to WATCH MOVIE today!!
YAY!!! <3

TATA!!

2008-09-27T19:54:00.003+08:00

This reminds of you!!
Cute right!!
hehe!!

HeeheeX..... Do you?
Or was it a lie?!
If it is then....

And if you ever play with my heart,

I just have to tell you this....

Define forever....

I wonder....
But i trust you no matter what...
and just.......

That's all i have to Say to you!!
See.... How much I do!!
So..... Don't hate me!

If you...

2008-09-26T21:36:00.015+08:00

Dearest XXXXX ♥,

I think about the cuteness it's just like you!!

Seriously My mood ups for no good....

I remember you where telling stories about this and i put it up...

See how much i care!!
and see how much i remember you!!
and see how much i really want you to be around!!
Care to say that I'm not actually crazy for you but it's just that I love the fun with you.

Why the Hells wrong with me?
Why must I think so much?!
Like As if you care?
I don't think so la....
Omg!! What wrong with me?!!

Yup It's me alright!! I'm always that type where i care and not sure if they do.

And i Think is not that hard to forget you either....
see... I got the list What to forget!!

And pls.....

I seriously can't get over you!!!!

But if you did ever Leave me, Then I just think....

But can i not let that happen??!! Pls...

And That is you!!

I feel that this is Us... sob2

Are WE?!
Do you hate me so much?!

Anyway i miss you much!!

To be continue when you want me too can??!!

Loved Jumie.

2008-09-26T07:35:00.004+08:00

MorNing, 7.36am!!

Can I call you now?!
No can't do!! Can't disturb you!

But I want to heard your voice...
Still a NO NO!!
You need a Long rest!
Nevermind wait till you woke up!

Woah! Can't believe my mum ask me to go down with this Sexy black top on and makes me uncomfortablely in the lift being looked!
Sian ~_~"

Gosh! I'm bored! I need a hug! A an attention Seriously!

Like this!!

Why must i be like pampered since small?!
Yesterday should have done it!
I can't sleep T-T !!

LoLs....
I so Wanting to take a CooL Photo with You!
Can?! Please...
Count Down 5 more days to RAYA!!
WHY THE HELL I'VE BEEN HEARING YOUR NAMES NOW!!!
GOSH!!

I blog again later... My heart so Melted That i want hug my pillow!!
Dearest XXXXX ♥
I miss you so much... Can give me a hug?! So need it!
Loved Jumie ♥

It's Raining!! So good can try sleep now?!
Love Love!!

I kind of wondering can Love Be forever? I don't want netheir to change nor replace it.
It hurts.... How to keep Loved?
How can i make it stay?
How can i make it not to leave me?
Seriously... I want only him....
PLease don't leave me!!
Cause I know I Heart you so much!
Omg!! Now the time it's like going to 9am!!
Guess What?!
My mum ask me to go down Buy something 1st..
And I did la.. then suddenly It rain HeaviLy!!
DaMn stupid me!! I didn't bring an umbrella...
So i ran home.. And with soaking WET!!!
Sian!! The cardigan its weT!! Still I play with the Rain!
Wohoo.. Fun la!!
Okay back to where i were...
Yup and i did!!
Everywhere I go must be seeing you or perhaps hearing your voices!
Seriously it freak me out but not that much!
The phrase there " I want member..." keeps Appearing in my mind?!
Why... cause I freaking want to get it for you la..!
Till then,
I suddenly feel hungry...
Hmmm... ~_~'"
opss.. Fasting!!
Teehee.. ^_^"
ツ

2008-09-25T18:26:00.004+08:00

I found something out of to my supprise.
Hey... It's okay... don't cry (a dear angel whispper... )
Where have i heard this before?

Anyway i got this thing while viewing through the love poem/ watsoever.
I didn't understand a thing!
What's it trying to say!!?

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn'tsupposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things of old one dids. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. "

8.50pm, was riding a cab...

There I was,... early then what was expected.
Got lost @ first, but there I was save by a Mocking bird saying that how foolish of me to get lost in such a places i went before.
Althought it's a moment, still I get to see the Smile,

Hear the mocking and even feel the Sence of touch.

It bring me a smile Now going back riding a taxi.
ILY!!!
Miss you too..... !!

Dearest LoveD,

Thanks for everything... Your care even thought you are abit of mean, Your concern even thought you are abit of cruelty, Your Love even thought i didn't know whether you do or not, but still no matter what my love will never fade for you. You make me happy enough. Till then i'll write again.

Loved ;Jumie

2008-09-24T12:15:00.009+08:00

I'm in a crazy mood!! Seriously!!

Dearest XXXXX ♥,

Can I wish upon you?
Today i'm bored at home, hoping that I can have fun all by myself at home, but things get in a way. I've thought about what to do but my brain in a mess to do anything right now.
I wanted to tell everything that I felt about you, but i guess you getting tired of it. So.. all I do now is keep that to myself.
Till you hate me. Do tell!

Morning past by and My mum get to find out something.
Pretty sure I'm suppose to be dead by now, but I just got lucky thats all.

And I suppose that you made me a cookies but you ate it.

It's okay.

" Make me another one then!"

Anyway... where was i ? Ah... Telling you about how lucky I was.
Ended the story on that. So now it's just that i missing you.
I also found out something to. Guess you already known.
Well I wishing that You could bring me a Smile that last forever to be around with you, but i'm pretty sure it won't happen.
Well I should be dreaming about it by now.
It okay.

I try to give everything that you want, anything that you need.
Just to see you abit happy or below is expected.
Since i can't predict you that much but i know you're that type of person.
Still it doesn't make me less or never love to be with you.
Wondering why....?? But sure perhaps Times changes the atmosphere.
I can't predict future... but i hope being around you lasted till my souls doesn't stuck to my body or by anychance I'm the one at fault.
Still everything you do, you have my support. If you need me, i try to be there on time (to my counting i'm always late i perhaps).
Sorry for being such a foolish, annoying, disturbance , irritating girl to you, I try my best to change what you do not like about me.

Thank for everything you've done good or even some bads that turn out good. Till the next updating posting then. You are always Miss!

Love; Jumiati a.k.a Jumie! ♥

ツ

Trust me this is not a joke!

Till then!!

2008-09-23T18:23:00.004+08:00

What the hell has happen to me?!
Why am i like this?!

Why in my life I do that?

So sorry mummy!
I love you to much i guess! XXXXX
And being there i can't stop and think.
Why is it so right to do that?

Omg!!
I'm so dead!!
DEAD!!

DEAD!!

Hate myself!!
Why must i love you to much!! XXXXX
I'm so dead!

2008-09-22T21:25:00.003+08:00

So.. today... I went to my sir house...
So tiring!!
I'm so in love La with this Cardigan i wear right now!

HearteD .

I got so much to Do!!
I mean trying to get what Sir wants..
I think that all for today...
Jumie so boring...

Tatta!

2008-09-21T11:23:00.002+08:00

Well, i'm seriously confuse 0-0?? right now.
What happen was true or not i'm seriously thinking.
Damn!! It's like a dream! I'm not kidding.

Him?!
Not in my life i ever thought he's so CooL!!!
Dots... i mean erm...
My brain is popping out thinking about how on earth we end up there?

OK...
One thing makes the Fun is that...

We didn't even realise what are we doing..

well not sure to the other party.
He teaches me So much!
I mean Psycologically..

Sorry..

I'm so bored... Studying on Behaviour Science.
Seriously it lead him the wrong way...
+-+"

was that even right?

It sounded right... But as what i've been told it was wrong!!

Shoot!!
I wanna pretend it never happen,
tell me how?
I can't forget it!!
Keep shaking my head but it won't make me stop thinking!
I wish and my only wishes is to be with him!
Patiently waiting and planing...

I'm INSANE!!! No he IS!!

2008-09-20T14:27:00.002+08:00

I'm so in love!!
But too bad he's an asshole.
He's totally out of his mind!!!
Seroiusly who would have thought he's that much of an ass!!

Who couldn't believe what he's doing now while i'm actually blogging this.
He's so totally out of his mind...
NUts!!

2008-09-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

TodaY it was ExtreMly fun!
Movie boy over flower is done!

But i prefer the Drama better! Haha..

And guess wat?!

My own cream puff is not for eating! How sad. =(

Wasted for Face Mask!

Thanks for the day.

I appreciate the Face mask.
Hoping to look forward to another Fun!

THanks!!

Ouh I forgot! I owned someone two things!!

Damn!

2008-09-16T14:10:00.002+08:00

Well i'm going out today...
Is going out with the opposite sex alone call a date?
Well i don't care anyway....
For such a reason...

All i want is to watch a movie.

Well damn it I hate being back to school now.
So bored.
Why everytime that i'm in a place that already get use to it,

It will end fast?!

Well no time to write alot... i need to get ready to meet someone.
Bye!!!

2008-09-09T21:38:00.001+08:00

[verse 1]
Wouldnt it be nice when attachment is over
Then we wouldnt have to wake so early~
And wouldnt it be not to clean anymore as
as that kind of world is not where we belong
[verse 2]
Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the afternoon when the day is new
And after having spent all our money
scolding each other the whole night through
[verse 2]
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
than we might not have to go to school
We could rob a bank or kidnapp for a living
And then kill some1 and be happy

Would'nt it be nice

Edited by Hyder.

2008-09-09T20:09:00.002+08:00

Time past by so fast!!
A blink of an eye... comes to today 090908 that i hate to end the attachment.

Another 3 days more... What is fun won't be fun any longer.

Thanks for helping. ( To the one whom i owned much )

Thanks for your time, trouble and tolerants.

Your name and apperances will I remember.

Thanks so much,

Your truly;

Jumiati Naim

2008-08-17T15:08:00.002+08:00

Bored......
So bored...

No use going outside if u are alone...

No friends to go out with.

Damn life is bored..

Nvm.. can i get to know more friends..??

2008-08-09T01:06:00.002+08:00

Fever!!
Thank's for passing the germs ehk..

You! A friend of mine who never turn up today...

080808

friday

Apparently i did not skip attachment today cause..
It's the last day..
Guess i see Mr ANneH went home today..
Nice.
He was the one closes to us during this attachment period!

And Sn Hasannah, Sn Kak Noraini. I'll miss you!!

Keep in touch yah.. =)
5 people didn't turn up for afternoon shift..
end up 3 people only..
so bAd!!

And great!! Next week! MOnday is holiday for us!
planning where should i go.
town?
bugis?
Hmmm...
meh yoH CeN!!
stay at home perhaps..

yessa!! i saw 21st aug shift for me!! mine is morning!!
yay!!
so going to celebrate!!
Hope nothing happen on that particular day!!
Oh god please avoid me from being unhappy or lectures/nagged.

I'm being adored by some people..
But some people that adore me, only spend a little time with me.
sorry..
And people who likes me.. usually so close to me yet far still.
Wonder...
It's you..
Yah you..
No! not you.. it him...
Nvm..

gosh...
I'm in a state of depression now i guess..
Having alot of thing to handle..
But so far.. it seem i can manage it.
just see wat happen nex.
I'm waiting for my sis wedding which falls 0n 15nov
and paiting the new room on september.
Inviting someone who can help to come over..
hehe =)
thanks!

ok stop her..
Nights bloggie loggy!!

2008-08-03T11:09:00.002+08:00

Sweetest Sunday la sae....
Glad Woke up this Morning to find out that you're not working!!

Haha... I had the sweetest Day ever !
But when today end..
You have to give up on enjoying..
Cause prepare for Monday Madness.
Where Mdm Wu is going to lecture us about thursday.
I don't think this attachment is fun anymore.
But Hey...
There's work to do..
so... I think it will occupied my time.

I no longer need someone to be there for me.

Dependent on myself again.
so what do i care about other people now?

I miss Lina la sae..
so missing her Badly...
Lina!!!

I miss You!!

Can't wait till fasting month.
althought i don't like to fast, but...
The season really makes me so wonderful!

I'm so not going to wait till my big day!!

where i want my mummy to make a b'day party.

2008-08-02T11:26:00.002+08:00

Guess what!?!!
Attachment for me has becoming more & more boring plus lethargic for me...
I hate that everyday i had to wake up in the morning and know that i'll be having the bad day of my life on that particular day!

It's boredom for me!!

Rather stay and home and wrestle with my MOMMY!!

Some people know that friends doesn't stay for long.. and i believe it!!
Saturday?
Hmm what should i do when i woke up?!
Go out of course!! But where??!!
Nowhere!!
I wonder if that "numb skull" really inviting me to watch movies!!
Hmm...
No maybe...

I'm gonna so stay @ home..

2008-08-02T11:18:00.003+08:00

Saturday night fever!!
Yesterday was a bad Friday for me!!
I regreted changing shift!!
Useless anyway..
But still at work i keep myself smiling..
Omg!!

I cry yesterday night!!

Pity me!!

Stressfull huh?!

2008-08-01T10:35:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday HAIRIZI!!
Wishing You had the BEST birthday ever!!

And HAPPY NURSES' Day to ALL nurses include me!!

2008-07-29T22:10:00.002+08:00

There's so much to do!!
I'm so busy..
Sorry!!!

Happy, hurt and still smiling though..
Go Jumie!!

Have a nice day everyday to me!!

Sorry!!
Update it during my free times..
Sooo... sorry!

2008-07-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

I'm bored today...
My whole day staying at home.
I miss going out!
Preference of Primary/ Secondary school then this ITE.
Not much of enjoyments.

I rather like to be admited to IMH.

Where else mental person can be?

What does Petty means?
Was in my mind from just now?

But nevermind..
No important.

Well i hate creepy corridors.
It so nightmare on my reality tug in bed!
I'm scared of my own room till now!
I'm scared of the dark.
Normally if there where to be a blackout i shout, jump and grab someone hands for sure.
If i were alone i would scream and cry.
Try that. I remember those day...

So scary..

I need light to be with me until i sleep.
Camping is a nono.. until someone beside me company me to sleep.
Then when i wake up, i expect to see the light not the darkness.
Wth i'm talking about this.
It's like no one here!!

Shit!! I'm freak out!!
Done HEre

BYE!!

2008-07-19T12:27:00.003+08:00

Who doesn't loves to eat donuts?
Well not me...
I love it..
Althought it's fattening, once in a while should taste it!
Nice!!
Addictive but worth trying.
Awww.. it make's me hungry..
And i miss MarLina's Cooking!!
See...
Her Breakfast that she make for me last time..
Totally lovely!!
And Superb Delicious for me!!

I miss it!!

And yah i miss Barbequeing Too!!
Esp...
With Faisal!!

I miss my best frienD!!

Can u buy me chocolates??

26 JUly on saturdaYS!!
I need theM.
It's nurses Day!!

See Our chalets...

I enjoy being with Them!!
Abit bored Cause not many people.
But hell yah to me it was Fun!!

I miss schooL

Where i always have this slave of mine to help me carry my tabner,

and even talk to me around 24hour And i always enjoy my weekdays!!
Thanks to Faisal for being there during the schools time..

Remember, enduring the attachment is fun!!
See you back at schooL!!!

26 july can't wait!!

Ruzaini coming too!!
Maybe hazeeQ too!!
I'll ask him to come!!
We'll See Miss Rafika And Mdm Lee!!

And yah to you who reading this!!
I'm gonna miss you too,
But i know being with you is worth only a moment.
So dun forget me huh!
=)

Loving My Classmate : Jumiati Missing you guys!!

2008-07-17T20:50:00.002+08:00

I die die want the initial to be sign badly!!

Thanks for all the bed bath plan...
You ruin it la..!!

Hate you!!

But no matter what i'm patient enough to wait.

And yah... wondering why must i be so nice one??

Stupid me!!

Hate myself!!

And yah i'm totally a sucker!!

Like someone always say so....
So hurtfull!!

2008-07-15T17:13:00.004+08:00

Today was so great that morning i do alot of stuff to keep myself busy!
I feed My favourite "boyfriend".
Haha...
Ok ok The uncle at bed30 ward43

So the manja lor..
Ishk!!!
And experience Seeing A patient bed31 get operated in the cubical itself.

CooL...
The blood actually splashes out on the certains and stitches were cut out.. woah!!
Cool..
And best thing is that The nurse Thilla really check on about the patient virus..
Which is MRSA.
In my cubical!!
Metallin Resistance Stephicocolus Aurues?
not sure the spelling is right.
so whateva..

Hehe..
Can't Wait to be in audi theater on 26 ~~august~~ July..
So like seeing the class back!!
HEllO to..
FAisal,
HAzeeQ,
HairiZi,
Ruzaini,
Nora,
Anggerek,
Etc...

Yay!!

And can't wait till 8 sep lor..
Like there is no more
Attachment!!
YAhoo!!

Although is Fun...
But i Still thinking that the team make it bored...
With Credit stealer around..
All they do is make fun of her.. LolS

And btw..
Getting Happier Now adays...
Seem that my character is so unpredictable..
U need to tickle me.. tease me And like gosh... trick me then i reponse!!

Oh shit!!
I show my Weakness!!

damN!!

can like forget about it!!

Ouh yah Sandra give me Chocolate!!
yay!!

Eating now..

I'm so like waiting to have a not lazy leg to go to the Gym..

If like someone invite me..
i think i be glad to go.. =)

I'm so missing my friends..
ouh thats include you..
You reading it...
Yah you!!

Yes.. It is you..
I'm preety sure..
IT really you that i miss!!

errmm..
What can i say...
Retarded Specimen!!

Ouh yah... Adam you too..

Oh and hyder to!!

Omg!! Im so sleepy!!

Need to Sleep..

Ermm Talk again later la...

my Eye are so killing me!!

2008-07-13T22:02:00.001+08:00

This is what my Name means...

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

CooL..... =)

2008-07-13T13:47:00.002+08:00

Can i accept the fact that i can't even enter his deepest life?

Hello!!
i'm down with a pyrexia

Which is 38 degrees cels.
Quite a slight fever actually.
Flu and headached is common.
I'll get use to it.

Can't sleep in peace today.
I was thinking of something which wasn't meant to be think.?!?

OK i didn't get this.

Can't wait to go back to attachment and finish this whole week so that i can actually go back to school and have a break to rest and learn.
I know i can get over this.
After a while.
I was wondering..
Why can't i share this?
It just kept hurting me.
I just can't cause my feeling was into him.
Even thought that i know this was only a moment between me and him,
I can't accept the fact that we'll be like only for a moment.
Sadly..
I can say that some people mind is blind by their surronding.
I can't do anything now.
I just want to be what i use to be with or without having this Feeling.
I know... I will only disappear from his mind one day.
I wish mine too.

Somethings are better left unsaid.
I need chocolates!

2008-07-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

I feel so uneasy..
I don't understand why...
I hate to have this feeling...
My heart is aching.

What can i do?

I want to snap out of this.
It's so disturbance to my life.

If only it doesn't have to happen.
I was waiting something to happen.
Why is this so?

Ouh gosh.... I wish i was werking again.
Even though it was tiring but i never wanted to go home.
i wish to stay...
Boredom make me think so much.
Jumie!!
Get over it!!
It hurtS!!
Please..
Even Superman can't help or save you.

Oh gosh..

I' going crazy!!
I'm so out of space...
No air..
CAn't breath easily..
My head!!
Is killing me!!
I think i'm insane!!

Get away with it!!
please..
I'm begging you...
I can't handle this anymore...

I wish i could..
But i can't.

I tried to tell..
but word are hard to say..
I try to make you listen...
But things are getting away..
everytimes i want to tell you something..
my head would just turn away...

How can i tell?

If us not going to happen.
How can i stay?
If one day i'm sure you will go away.
It hurts..
Please let me stop thinking to much.

2008-07-12T10:08:00.003+08:00

This is a moment where I remember The word "L.O.V.E"

Nothing like you never felt before,

It hurts!!
Till now...
You won't have peace until someone enter your life truthfully and willingly.

But Thank to him i learn what is hurt.

Since the day you leave me...
My heart start to fall apart...
And now I had a broken heart.

Now I'm so depress..

Thinking about the thing we had..
Together we make some sweet memories..

All the love & care i gave it to you..
You Never appreciate it at all..
And now i go and it takes to say that..
No one will love you..
Like I do...
I miss you..

You can see me laugh everyday,
You can see me joking around,
But no one knows how i feel inside.

Seeing you hurts me inside..
I feel like i want to cry..
but crying doesn't bring you back in my life...

♥ Loving the memories I had crush my heart! ♥

2008-07-12T04:10:00.000+08:00

Ouch!! Hearteached!! It hurts me!!
HE promised!!
But didn't see him there!!
MAybe he's asleep..
Fine... I keep on silences!!
Sorry To make u wait.
=(
I'm so sorry....!!

2008-07-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

Thank God is Friday!!
And it's so like The best part is Teacher Not around While i'm doing my job.
Yahoo!!
I love this pic too!! Cute us!!
ADAM & ME!!
(Using Hyder Phone)
=)

Thanks Hyder!!

I reward you by posting this photo which Adam took it secretly while i was teasing him.
Haha..

OLD!!!!!!!
Danger keep out!

Ok this is the part where i want to talk about Credit stealer!!
Shit her that she make me redo the charting & also keep blaming others!!
HATE HER!!

And thanks Yong Ming For Sharing with HYDER about the Fly thingy!!

So like Hating you!!
Nevermind

Ouh yah.... what would you do if someone like you?
And actually kept some feeling towards you and didn't really want to show it?

If i, I surely be glad that's a thing.
I feel appreciated...
Depends how close i am to that person.
I surely be more closer to him.
I just love to know who love me.
I know my mum!!

Is she?

Ok i think i start talking crap
Ouh gosh?!!
Why is my heart feel so low suddenly.. Uneasy..
I feel so like uncomfortable.
I think there's something in me that i need to shout out to...
but wondering who will listen?
who will understand.

What ever it is..
Please don't let my heartached just because of this.

2008-07-10T00:32:00.004+08:00

It's 12.32am in the morning & I'm awake to blog & chat!
I'm down with a heavy head ache.
Posibilities come from HYDER i think.
Sorry that i blog your name without permis.
Anyway..
I think Faisal upset that i have this kind of attitude toward him.
Sorry hor..
My bad!
Blanja u one day. OKay?

I love this pic!!
Wait!
I forgot to eat my CHOCOLATES!!
thank for the MARS hyder!!
And thanks HAIRIZI for the concern!!
And Thanks Faisal for the Care!!
and thanks Adam... for, ermm something like the FUN!!
(5 years knowing you is tottaly GREAT!!)

Poor sick Guy here Have a Fever!!
Thank to him i got one too!!
And Gosh Adam!! I need your pic to blog this!!
Anyway..
Can't sleep..
My mind is like playing around thinking of something that i can't get but i really want.
What should i do?
Ermm... You get it?
Nevermind if you don't.
I have a heartache i think!! My heart is like gosh!! Pain!!
Feel like beating it!!
Seriously!!
I'm stress over something..
And i'm hating that i have to go through life this way..
F%#* !! Oppss..
Mind me..
I think i got a bad influence here!
Attachment was fun with Adam & Hyder..
But.. was not fun when i miss school much more!!
My patient was starting to co-operate,
And this uncle was saying goodbye after i say goodbye!!
Wow!!
I start to like them already... 4 days was like super duper Friends!!
WooHoo...

And yah still hating credit stealer!!
Only some of my team know who is the credit stealer!
Thanks Very much for raising your voice @ me credit stealer!!
Embarassing moment!!
What the F%#*!!
Woopss.. again sorry.. my bad..
Haiz..
I think i stop here..
Getting Tired from the afternoo shift already.

And yah

This is Mr Hyder (SYED HYDER).
Well i'm way more sweeter than him!
He's a chicken rice food stall uncle...
(so random)
"Well he said so himself.... don't believe ask him!!

AhaH!! This picture is what i want to comment about...
HE LOOK TERRIBiLY Not 17 but older right? erm... 20+?
wo0pss... hehe
my apology to that person..
it was like someone did say so..
Haha =)

I want to blog Adam pic!!
But dunno where to find.. Nvm 2moro then..
ADAM (ALMUKMIN TAN )

2008-07-07T04:34:00.002+08:00

It's 4.36am in the morning and i hardly get any sleep!
Shit to the holidays I have.
I don't like ite at all.
I want to pull back but everything is to late.
I totally have nowhere to go now.
This life is really making me CRAZY!!

I miss my Secondary school friends.
I miss the past that i use to have.
Truthfully i rather be in my sweet 17 then growing older each day.

I hate Today and Tomorrow.
History is better!!
A big "N.O" to "What happen next?"
I don't wish to know.

Gosh i just wish i could turn back time!
Why do I ever choose this course?

And hell yah i want to back off!
My mum would totally disagree and I'm sure the class would think This JPA class turn rotten already...
Without Mdm Lee we'll be so far apart!
ATTAchment SUckS Big time!!

I miss my friends!!
I miss working & I miss my beauty smile!!!
Damn!! Why do i ever bother taking this course!!

Was wondering where can i get fast money and part time weekenders work?
I need money hurry2!!

I Need to go shopping =( !!
PLease!!
I too wanna make B'dae party... =( !!

2008-07-06T06:14:00.000+08:00

What would you do eventually if you found out not one but more than two guys actually like you? Kind of admiring you? And some even want to be more than a friend. Some people might like it. As for me, i do like it because somehow you know that you are not being hated, but then; think again... People could be far of from you just because they being rejected. I don't think i can handle that. =) Well as i can see... I only want some opinion on this that's is why i blog here. I'm scared that i hurt them to much. Deep down i really can't make any decision cause it's not for me to make. It's either they willing to endure to be happy with me or either heartbreaking moments to see me reject from being more than a friend. It happen to fast for me to pick one of them. This make my head spin alot. To tell you the truth, i still can't forget my 1st love. He use to be the best ever perfect person in my life. I wonder how to make myself move on after for how many years of happiness & fun we gone through. He do really make me understand what is life, and even make me a princess. I miss those times.Now.. i hate being choosy... everything have to go my way...I wonder what can i do with someone who admired me alot.Keep quiet? Dissappear? Reject them? So not Jumiati!She too soft hearted. Can't bearly see someone get hurt!!Ouh gosh.. hard life.. Help me!!

2008-07-04T16:31:00.002+08:00

I'm so Going crazy today!!!
So aNgry!! ArgH!!
I'm suPpose to go out today.
But end up staying @ home!!
erggH!! BOredoM sucKs!!
Shit & heLL it's sucKs!!
Nothing to do @ home except doing This crazy editing!!
See!!

CooooL right!! Haha... I love♥ it!!
Since Hairizi cancel the plan & Faisal playing soccer!!
I date with the LaptoP @ home & help mummy pack her bag.
She going KL!!
Should i go down to Woodlands or Not?!
So damn boreD!!
HAted that todaY i got Left out BY this 2 guys!!

What the hAck!!
I'm suPposed to be the princess here !!
They enjoying & i'm stck @ home!!
Clever them!!
nevemind..
nevemind..
make me bored right!!
Later i make them SOoooo....
Guilty That They knee Down and give me Lots of chocoLates!!
Talking about choCoLates....
HAIRIZI!!! You own Me ONE CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!!

SadLy I'm being buLLied by them!!
How can they do that...
I'm so innocent leh...
I never even Dare to hurt them and they hurt me like this!!
So hurting!!
I hate you guys!!!
After attachment they'll see...
I Crush their heart♥ into pieces!!!
HAhahahah....!!

Walao... Can stop me going crazy or not?!!
SHit!!
I'm stress Over it!

I need to go out larh!!
MuMmy!!
You guys make me least important!!
HOW CAN LIKE THAT!!

Never Mind Once i find a new GUY FRIEND,
I'll be with him all the way & forgot that you guys are my friend!
Thanks ALOT!!!

I'm totally sold out to someone who deserve my love♥!!

Hate that today is such unlucky to me! >=(

* Jumiati Angrying*
DO NOT DISTURB!!!

2008-06-30T23:22:00.002+08:00

Today I feel so good.
Morning I went for a checkup.
Then go eat.
(with someone la.. not alone)
Then i realise that something burning in my heart.
I feel like somehow, someone hold me close to tell me that he's there watching over me.
Something tell me that no matter what, it's life that I facing with.
But in times that I'm afraid to tell him that i actually love him,
I admit that now i do.
I'm afraid that i might hurt him.
I afraid that i can't even make myself stronger to hold on the big wave together.
Why must love felt to be this way?

I'm confused with my feelings...
I love him, but yet i don't want him to be hurt.
That's why i don't dare to tell him that i love him the most.
Still if he's hurt, i'm the one to be blame.
I don't even dare want him to leave me if i'm the one to cause it to have a big problems.

Wouldn't it be nice if he there beside me every moment?
Haha.. The big thing is...
It can happen if we go through it with patients..
Good thing will come if we handle it with good! =)

And yup!!!
I fall in love!!
Oh hell yah i want to tell the world...
But shh....
I have to keep this feeling to myself..
Ouh Dearest Torres!!!
You make me fall in LOVE!!!
Ouhh... Torres!!
=)

This is miracle.

I gain love & trust back!!
Oh god thanks!!!
I promise i take care of him!!
yes I will!!
=)
MuackS!!

Love by: Jumiati Princess Sweets =p

2008-06-30T06:00:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY SUPER SLEEPING!!!

Super Boring @ home!!

There something I need to do...
Sleep!!
Watching footballs make my eyes look like panda!!
And Hardly get enough sleep when people start ringing my phone @ 7.30am in the morning!
Then mum start nagging at me to clean my bedroom!
And dad ask me to go and WAKE UP do something!

Wth!!
Afternoon come...

Thought that i could get abit of rest!
By big problem my mind can't shut off and my eyes are totally sore!
BACKACHED!!!

I miss sleeping while on the phone.. that's is when i totally knock out hearing someone voices ( it bring out the rain! )
Haha sorry for the unexpected moment.
Silence knock me out and your voice kill me i think!

Haha.

OUH YAH!!
Talking about sleep...
I get the weirdest dream that i was lying in a garden full of fruit trees...
There's lots and lots of different fruits.
I pluck out an apple from the tree and guess wat... the apple turn crystal pink!!
I try to bite it.. Ouh.. it TASTE freaking SWEET in my dream!!

I thought of plucking another one.. but my mom woke me up!!
Ergg.... there goes my fantasy sweet dream apple... =(
Craving for apple!!

I want a musical box!!
Haha... the box which u open got music!
I hoping for one.
Last time my brother buy one on my birthday... and it broke.. my mum throw it away.

Crunching an apple...
I think i stop here... maybe i'll write again at night =)
Musical box!! Wait for me!!

2008-06-28T12:58:00.000+08:00

Hellu!!!
Hehe.....

Well... nari Jumie nak type dalam bahasa melayu pulak!!

Bosanlah duduk rumah.
Takpe... Jumie ade sesuatu nak share!
Tadi... kat TV3 nie ade satu show, tapi tak tahu pulak ape show.
Jumie nampak satu perempuan ni kena panggil ambush makeover!!
Wah... Bestnye kalau Singapore ade macam tu!!
Perempuan taklah lawa sangat...
Tapi... lepas makeover tu 1000times better!!
Lawa giler!!
Lelaki mesti jatuh cinta punyer...
Haha..
Alaa... Takpe.. Jumie dah besyukur dapat wajah manis macam nie.
Hehe... perasaannyer!!

Nari actually ade orang ajak keluar... tapi sorry tak dapat ikot.
Hidung nie ade jerawat.
Tak best!!!
Fernando Torres kalau tengok jerawat ni mesti lari!!
Ape lagi dier... Hehe.

Jumie tak sabar nak sampai bulan puasa!!
~> Nak gi pasar geylang...
~>Buka puasa kat Luar!!
~> Malam raya... Celebrate!!!
August... Birthday Jumie!! 21st tau!! Mesti ingat!!
August ade macam2 event!!
~>National Day
~> Baybeats
~>Fireworks Fest
Bests!!

Hari paling indah sekali... MY birthday!!!
Harap2 mama buat birthday party untuk Jumie!
Oklah...
Jumie stop here!

Nak Tell to Faisal;
Sorry.... =(
Kalau jumie ade buat Faisal sakit hati.
Nanti Raya Jumie Minta maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki ehk.
=)
Nie kat blog leceh sikit!
Miss You during the 3 month attachment!
Having you as a bestfriend in school is such a help!
=)
Birthday present 21st august mesti ingat ehk.
Jangan Lupe!!
Hehe... =)

2008-06-28T12:33:00.000+08:00

Sorry... Yesterday didn't continue writting, was out with my parent.
Went back home, i was totally knock out.

Hmm.... Where can i go today?
Boring la... Singapore not much to round about.
Especially when you be living here for the whole live!

Aaaaaa.....!!!!
Hard to enjoy my short holidays here.
Boring Gila!!
From Thursday Till now...
Sit at home & put on weight.

Actually i have something to share...
I feel like i'm a girl who can't fall DEEPLY in love with someone else who actually love me.
Sorry....
Hard for me to say this, but actually my heart still not in the mood for real relationship or whatsoever.
All thanks to the trust i put for the past ones.
Now, to move on is abit heavy for my heart.
I leave out my friends to him.
End up i'm the one at lost.
Haiz..

2008-06-27T16:49:00.000+08:00

Ouh Gosh Torres Is so cute!!

I Just Love him!!

See Cute right!! Can't believe i stay all night to watch his match!!

Morning i woke up found myself smiling!

Spain In FINAL yay!!!

Wohoo.. can't be happier...

I don't remember taking this photo, above.
It's inside my computer though.. so i upload it.
I so missing them!!!
Hope they'll be going for chalet. ツ

I'm so bored at home. Stuck with nothing but just TV's and computer to company my boredom.ツ
When can I ever have a good & peacefull life!!
Hate Boredom, Attachment & much2 more.

I miss the times where, as a young teenager i going out enjoying the outdoors.
Loving the nature...
Loving the Art's around me & even
Loving ~~Him~~....

Shit!! so Bored La..!! Can anyone ask me out?!
I hate to be stuck at home and 24 hours Online without burining any fats!!
Faisal!! Hairizi!! Gosh I miss you Guys!!
Lina?! Shasha?! Aren't you asking me out?! I miss you guys..!

Continue back later.... Be right back...
ツ

2008-06-26T19:54:00.000+08:00

Miss the Good Times....

Attachment coming... So goin to Miss my Friends..

I miss School!!!!!

Darn Still remember the day I go out with Them!

FuN, Fun!!

See how happy we are??

I got nothing to do but uploading this memorable pics!!

Haha..

I just miss school!!

Especially their funniest & stupidest moment!

See What i mean??

THose are the time we get together!
Hazeeq do post cutely! Haha and sufi COoL!!

Ah the big Bully!!! Harizi!! He Owned me Big Time!!

Wait till After attachment!! He's dead for sure!!

Ah... This is the good times..

Sentosa Outing!! Loved!!

I miss school as much as I want to go back to school. I miss my friend! I don't want attachment. Not in the mood for it. I miss My class Noise and funny Moment.
No matter how much enemies or hates there is in the class I just love to be there!
I can't wait till after attachment. See how the class have change!
Woohoo..

Ouh There so much i want to do before the attachment starts!!
~> watch the wanted movie!!
~> etc... ( see my wishlist )
some are not in there.

Today there's nothing much i do at home. Missing my class advisor and classmate.

I can't do much of enjoyments today, due to "not in the mood" emotions.

I miss alot of person today!!

I even have the list!

I'll note down!!

Hazeeq,Harizi, Faisal, Ruzaini, MarLina&Shasha(my cuz), Farah, Suzana, Azizah,Iffah, Yong Ming, My nenek, My Auntie (Mak Ti , Mak Mik, ) & Miss My Uncle ( pak atan )... Not to forget Lina's brother ( abg zul) HEhe!!

My Sis are busy planing on her wedding. Me i can't wait to end 3 month of attachment!

Well tired out of smsing and chating.

I need a rest!

Toodles!!

I ♥ You!! MuacKS!! ツ

♥ Princess Jumiati Signing out ♥

2008-06-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

I was totally in Silence.

Hearing the Sadness story of my Friend.

I was caught in tears & worried.

How can he cope?

It was the matter of time that only death separate us apart from our love ones.

To him I feel pity.

To him I can only share the tears.

His lost is more compare to anything in this world.

I'm Sorry.

2008-06-26T13:07:00.000+08:00

I owned My Best Friend a big Thanks.

It was so much fun going out with him and friends.

So Thanks FAISAL!!!

Happy Now?

I POST your name!^^

Should be happy to have a friend like me!

This picture was taken on the 18th June 2008

(while waiting for hairizi) That day was our class BBQ pit day.

Nice day to me seriously.

Although it was not organised properly due to time and cost.

But still it was fun and nice to get the class to gather around.

Still I loved the sentosa outing, but he wasn't there.

Sorry, We did invite you but you don't want to.

Ouh i forgot... You were attach on that day.

Hehe.

Then I still remember that We went out study before the bio class test 1!!

FUN.

Taking alot pictures!!

And ouh yah.

I bought new specs!!

Red colour!!

Cute right!!

Thanks to them for choosing it.

Now i bored sitting at home doing nothing but editing this Blog.

Haiz..

2008-06-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

Making My new Blog!!